Currently December 2018
This month was filled with lots of fun/not-so-fun stuff.
- I had a mammogram. (not fun)
- I had a blood test (not fun)
- I have to wait for more tests (send good thoughts)
- I tried not to freak out over either of those two things
- I sent out our holiday cards
- I bought presents.
- I decorated our house.
- I made magic.
- I went on a few adventures with my brother
- I went to holiday parties.
- I sent out food journals
- I sent out packages to people who helped me this year.
- I broke my pinky toe and had to wear sandals outside for almost two weeks.
- I had friends visit
- I visited friends
This was the first actual Christmas at my parent’s house since my mother died. Last year we were in LA and in total shock and this year, we celebrated together. It was nice and simple. My Mom would have been happy to see us all together, making her recipes in her honor.
I had to ask a lot of questions of myself this month.
Questions like:
- What do I want to foster tradition wise?
- What can go?
- What will stay?
- How much energy can I put into it?
- How can I ask for help?
- What would my Mom do?
December was a tough month for me emotionally. Christmas was one of my Mom’s favorite holidays so it feels so weird to not have her part of it. Christmas music can bring up so many feelings! I totally forgot. I am pretty proud of how much I was able to accomplish in a short period of time while feeling pretty low! It’s important to remember that the holiday season can be rough for other people. It’s a reminder to give yourself grace in the process!